Struggle with myself

Phoenix

Slowly I open my eyes
And I look into yours
I shiver, not knowing
Whether to laugh or to cry.

Bravely I stand my ground
Fighting the tears
I can’t breathe, I can’t move
Fighting my fears

I can’t
Because reflected in your eyes
Is what I have felt
For a very long time

There’s a storm coming
Creeping up from within
We both know it, we both feel it
The rage, the fear
So easy to give in

And with despair I see
That you feel the same
We should stand up
We should fight
Rising up from the flames

But I can’t, I am stuck
Frozen to the spot
Trying not to drown
In the fear that’s growing stronger

I wish I was more courageous
And I wish you were too
To face it head on, to stand our ground
To show strength against whatever we’re going through

But every time I try to move
The darkness grows stronger
Pulls me in deeper
Pulling me away from you

And you’re just standing there
Watching, waiting, frozen
Disappointment and sadness in your eyes
Struggling for the faith we’ve chosen

I scream, for you, for help
Trying so hard to hold on
I look at you one more time
Searching, praying for hope and strength
Finding none

Cause I can see it in your eyes
The hope and dreams, the faith and love
Overshadowed by threats of the past
Fear of the future

And the only thing that’s left to do
Is waiting for the storm to pass
And I’ll see you on the other side
Past or future, framed in glass

Cause what I see is you, is me,
Me and my reflection in the mirror.