As hard as I try

Anony

 some things circulating in my head
 as hard as I try
 but not everything can I forget

 I know I should go on with life
 many say that also to me
 but do they really realize

 that when I am home
 I constantly check
 if I have a message
 in my mail box or on my phone

 and at night when it's time to count sheep
 sometimes I try not to fall asleep
 because dreams let me feel and see
 that she is much more than a memory

 I have to learn to find a way
 to empty my head
 but in my heart she will always stay